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Atonement


An awfully familiar scent 
picked up from a total stranger;
a bewildered me,
the invisible you.
It's nothing but old memories,
that are perpetually new.

Scars in time may fade away,
the ghost of you is here to stay.
Away from my dreams please go away,
you've painted my whole life gray.
We aren't so perfect to our dismay,
“说的做的再多也是无谓,
不愿放手只会让彼此更累。”
yet nothing I say could make you sway.

Your trust in me I foolishly betray,
无法原谅自己的愚昧,
learnt my lesson through the hard way,
当初不该将你的爱浪费,
guess sorrow's the price I have to pay.

Nights without you 真的好黑好黑,
when I'm crying alone 多想有个人陪,
even today 还是忘不了你的美。
Never will I put one's heart to play,
ever till my dying day.

Days and nights have since then passed,
you and I we broke apart,
如今你不再是囚鸟自由的飞,
我却依旧在为过往而忏悔。

On my death bed I feebly lay,
still regretful for the hurtful words I say.
truly wish that I could 回到过去擦干你的泪。
Atoning for my sins if I still may,
Lord forgive me this dragon I'll slay,
within me that's ruined everything that used to be okay.

I close my weary eyes after I pray,
finding peace eventually as life slips away.

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