Il Cavaliere Inesistente

About 2, 3 days ago I was surfing the web aimlessly like a zombie and suddenly I have the urge to listen to 领悟 by 辛晓琪. Yes it's one of those nights when emotions take over and I'm not even bothered to hold them off in case it gets overwhelming. What a classic! It is so melancholic and thus I can't help but to feel depressed. How long has it been? Sometimes I have this feeling of disdain towards myself for being so selfish. I know I'm not supposed to vanish into thin air just like that but somehow I got lost. So many things have happened and ignorance brought me unspeakable guilt. I should have been there by your side. Should have. What's the point of saying it now huh? Coming back to the song, its lyrics are actually pretty meaningful. However, it was the title that caught my attention - 领悟. For those who know Chinese or Mandarin Chinese to be precise, there're differences between 知道、了解 and 领悟. Correct me if I'm wrong but I guess it's fair for me to

I've always known his songs but the idea of buying his original album 黑色柳丁never occurred to me, not even in dreams. Yet somehow it became the very first original album that I've bought and it happened back when I was still a secondary school student. Ah... The good old days.  How delighted am I when I found out that all the songs contained in the album are beautiful. Speaking of which, something or someone triggered this writing and so here I would like to share one of his songs from the album with her and all of you as well. The title of the song is 蝴蝶 and the lyrics goes: 當這世界已經準備將我遺棄　像一個傷兵被留在孤獨荒野裡 開始懷疑我存在有沒有意義　在別人眼裡我似乎變成了隱形 難道失敗就永遠翻不了身　誰來挽救墬落的靈魂 每次一見到你　心裡好平靜　就像一隻蝴蝶飛過廢墟 我又能活下去　我又找回勇氣　你的愛像氧氣幫忙我呼吸 我又能呼吸　我又能呼吸　你就是不願意放棄 生命中充滿亂七八糟的問題　像走在沒有出口的那個迷宮裡　oh no 一次又一次只會用藉口逃避　怎麼你從來沒對我徹底的死心 我有何德何能值得你珍惜　為何你對我有求必應 每次一想到你　像雨過天晴　看見一隻蝴蝶飛過廢墟 是那麼的美麗　就像一個奇蹟　讓我從倒下的地方站起　Woo.... 只要一靠近你　就覺得安心　你看著我的眼沒有懷疑 你對我的相信　讓我又能重生　不管世界多冷我還有你　我有你 愛我這樣的人對你來說不容易　我的痛苦你也經歷 你是唯一　陪我到天堂與地獄 每

Found something inspirational today and thought it'd be a good idea to share it. :) "It is necessary to write, if the days are not to slip emptily by. How else, indeed, to clap the net over the butterfly of the moment? for the moment passes, it is forgotten; the mood is gone; life itself is gone. That is where the writer scores over his fellows: he catches the changes of his mind on the hop. Growth is exciting; growth is dynamic and alarming. Growth of the soul, growth of the mind; how the observation of last year seems childish, superficial; how this year — even this week — even with this new phrase — it seems to us that we have grown to a new maturity. It may be a fallacious persuasion, but at least it is stimulating, and so long as it persists, one does not stagnate." ~Vita Sackville-West~ For more inspiring words from the author, kindly refer to  http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Vita_Sackville-West .

To quote a friend of mine: "You know it's already late at night but somehow you don't feel like going to sleep for no apparent reason". Perhaps there's the notion that life is indeed short and one has got to enjoy it to the fullest, even if it means just sitting there lost in one's own thoughts.  Come to think of it, this unwillingness to sleep seems to exist on two extremes: heavenly joy and hellish despair. You're either losing those precious moments of happiness while sleeping or you could at the same time slip into unpleasant nightmares depending on how you're feeling at that time. For me, I choose to stay awake because there's a void inside me that I can't seem to fill.  Despite the fact that I'm pretty exhausted after coming back from work, I don't really feel like sleeping. I guess I could have lived in a fortress with maximum security and yet felt insecure. Sometimes I just need someone whom I could talk to, perhaps someon

Looking at  the moon tonight, so big and full  and lovely and bright, casting down  a romantic light, I suddenly wonder  how it's like, to be walking on the moon  if I just might. As for you my love  who's on the other side, how I wish  you're right beside, so I can hold you  oh so tight, and get with you  on a long long flight, to a place  where our hearts reside, together forever  side by side. We're born  we've met  we'll wed  and eventually die, but though there'll be  an end to life, my love for you  will never subside, today tomorrow will always be like, the first day we met on the 8th of July.

14th of February, needless for me to remind you, it's Valentine's Day. The first thought that came to most if not all of you must've been love and romance. Well, that's what the society has imposed on us. In return, we accepted the idea without question. Why? I guess it's pretty simple: We need something to believe in, we need something to hold onto, perhaps what we need is a little hope that there's still love out there for us. In a sense this thirst for love is universal because everyone celebrates it regardless of race, religion, age, sex etc. I could be wrong but it's just a personal hypothesis of mine. As this widely celebrated day approaches its end this year, let us take some time to ponder or reflect on this thing known as love. Love can be tangible, intangible or even both depending on the context and how you see it. I believe that many of us often see love in couples infatuated with each other, holding hands and doing whatever that reminds yo

*Spoiler: This article has got nothing to do with spring cleaning at all.* I never really know how it feels like to be working full-time. Well, at least not until recently. That feeling of one being bound to responsibilities is just... heavy? lol I'm not supposed to be joking since it's something serious but then again, " Why so serious ?" to quote The Joker. *Sigh* I guess it requires a lot of effort when one is in a commitment huh? That is one of the reasons why I can barely blog nowadays. The moment I got back from work all I can think of is to relax my body as well as my mind. It's funny how I always thought of hanging out or doing other activities when I'm still at work but I end up going to bed early or laze at home at the end of the day. You can imagine how it's like when it requires strength for you to go out and enjoy yourself. Sounds kind of pathetic and exaggerated but it's just to give you a rough idea of how it's like to be working. Y

Finally I managed to finish The Five People You Meet In Heaven. I'm not doing a review here but let me just say that it's a book that's worth reading. I came across the book when I was still in secondary school and my friend told me that it was a masterpiece but it just so happened that I never really have the chance to give it a good read. Well, better late than never. Sometimes I have the feeling that even I don't understand myself. My indecisiveness renders me helpless when I'm faced with dilemmas. I've recently started my working life and to be honest there's an awful lot to be learnt, some through the easy way and some through the hard way. Either way it's still a lesson learnt which money can't buy and I'm trying hard to accept everything that happens, regardless of it's nature. I can start complaining but then it'll probably make me sound like a crybaby, I do whine, but only when it's necessary. There are times that one fee